Breathing underwater

It's encompasses my life lately. My kids have all been sick for the past month. Katia started the cycle. Her asthma/allergies trickered a full blown asthma attack which lead to this mystery bug. After several tests, the doctors treated her with antibiotics. That didn't work, she got sicker. So then her pediatrician put her on another 10 day dose and gave her this strong antihistamine. So she's doing great. Just as that happy moment came, Tayton threw up and his cycle started. The ER said he had a bad double ear infection. He didn't have a fever at this point, but after three days of Zithromax developed a high fever that didn't go below 102 for six days. The highest point was 105 Saturday night. But all along it was running 103-104. The ER was visited again, two boys in tow this time. Tayton's ears were checked, but this point the antibiotic had all been taken and he still had infections. They also thought, like with Katia, that he had strep, but the strep culture was negative. Puzzled and confused, the doctor put him on another antibiotic for 10 days. Tyler, throwing up every time he drank or thought of eating anything, was looking daunt. He had a cough for over a week. It was obvious to me that he had pnuemonia. After coaching the ER doc on the tests he should run, like an x-ray, he also opted for swabbing his throat at the same time since Tayton looked like he had strep. Negative of course, but low and behold, he has pnuemonia. Momma's not such a dummy.
So Tyler's on the mend sort of, Tayton on the other hand is not. His cough is horrible, he likely also has pnuemonia cause he sounds like he's breathing underwater when he lays down. It's scarey. But we'll see his pediatrician tomorrow in Marquette and I have full confidence he can figure out what is wrong. The problem with the whole scenario is the inability to get an appointment with the said pediatrician. We try to schedule routine visits when the dr. comes to Escanaba. It has worked, but when the kids are sick- I'm at the mercy of the ER or walkin clinic. And they are just plain inept.
The question is, where is all this coming from. I don't know. Is there a superbug they have been exposed to? I don't know. Even if Tayton does have pnuemonia, why isn't the antibiotic getting rid of it. And why the high fever for so long? It's a mystery.
In another area, I've been put underwater trying to figure out what to do next. I have lost the peace that I normally have. It's always a struggle when those who are above you fall, fall to sin. And yet they are condemning others. The respect has been stripped, the joy of my salvation is teetering, and I'm just trying to put it out my mind and breathe. We are humans, the fact is, we all sin. Even the righteous. It's just hard to go on sometimes. So I'm praying for wisdom, I'm praying for the needed mercy in my soul, I'm praying that peace will be restored. And I'm praying that the sins will be revealed. Because without that, without repentance, there can be no forgiveness.
In the long run, I'm gonna need a set of scuba gear. I love when Beth Moore says, "If the situation looks like it's going to be there for a while, you better just change your attitude. Cause if you keep saying your miserable, your telling yourself you are miserable and it goes right back into your head and comes out your mouth again." So I'm gonna look forward to VBS and to reading the books I just got and to answered prayer. And just maybe with that scuba gear, I could catch some fish!!