Decisions

Don't you hate hard decisions? I do. Have you ever had something stirring you up so much that you just have no peace? I seem to have. It all comes down to the comfort zone we live in and not wanting to rock that enfamous "boat".
So if the grass isn't greener on the other side, than why does it sometime seem that the side you are on is wilty, yellow, and heavily trampled? Ugh!!
For the past month, I have had this terrible uneasy feeling(wasn't that an Eagles song?). I think when God wants you to do something drastic, he will not let you feel peace until you do. I've been having a really hard time with our church. It's not the pastor or the majority of the church, just a few that have unknowingly made it difficult for me and my family. And I know that speaking up, would only hurt the few. So I'm not sure what to do. The kids love it there, I love it there. The fact of the matter is that it's just not baby friendly. So this is a big deal for me because for the past 14 months, the majority of the time I've had to leave Tayton at home with Paul while I went. I think I've had patience in all of it. We tried to form a committee to work on the nursery, order equipment, and try to get more volunteers, and I was the only person that showed up for the meeting! I had thought that maybe God wanted me to try to fix the problems, but I'm starting to think otherwise now. These problems are bigger than I can handle. Only God can change people. I guess I'll need to really pray about this and see what happens. I don't even have a clue as to what other church we could go to. Grace would be fine and is supposed to be a booming family type church, but the times I've been there- I just haven't felt like it was where I belonged. Like Tia says, the round peg in the square hole. Hmm. I guess we'll have to see what happens next.