Today is my mom's birthday, so we'll go to lunch somewhere later. I was thinking to day as I reread the card I found for her, that it wasn't that long ago, that I wasn't right with God. I wasn't walking with him, but wasn't that far away either. My mom would ask me nearly every week to come to church, and I'd find some reason not to go. I can remember resenting her new life, resenting the fact that her church family came first. I couldn't stand hearing worship music playing in her house all the time- it seemed that no matter the contact I had with her, it was forced down my throat. And as a result, I moved away emotionally from her. Oh, back then we didn't get along all that great either. That's taken alot of work on both our parts. And TOTAL FORGIVENESS. My aunt gave me a book on that- I only read about half- er- maybe a quarter of the book- but in that basic book, I learned that if you don't have complete total forgiveness, you don't ever have peace and real growth in your life. Forgiveness that has to come even from your toes. You can say, I forgive you, but if it's not from within the depths of your body and soul, it's not real. And God blesses you for forgiving even the deepest hurts.
And that's where I'm at with my mom. When I think back to my recommittment to God, I am so thankful that she was there to guide me in a loving way. I may not always agree with her on everything, but there's one thing that I can always count on- she's unwavering in her faith and she knows the Word. That in and of itself is a real gift. Happy Birthday Mom, I love you.
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No, she doesn't yet- but there are four computers on her floor that are for the residents to use- she's just been waiting for her email account.
Katia is fine except that she's coming down with a cold or something. She's trying to use those glasses less at school she says.
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